mood:  busymusic: Crystal Method - Name of the Game |
lets see, a lot has happend since my last update such as getting a job, loving erin more, losing a lot of time to job and other things.. i havent updated in so long because i dont have time. time is the thing here, wake up, be @ work from 7:00 to 5:00 come home @ 5:30 and spending time w/ erin. around 10 pm i can go to my PC and sit down for about an hour and that hour is dedicated to gaming and tsn stuff. so thats been my week. funny stories that have happend in the last few days that cost me money... last week erin and i went to arbys and got food that totaled $9.81. i look down after pulling out on to the road and notice that i have a bunch of cups from previous fast food places and there was no where to put our cups. so i pulled around to the mcdonalds (because they have nice little trashcan extenders) and go to the can, pulled up rolled down window, put my hand over for erin to hand the bag, she did and i tossed it...then she gave me another bag, the one with the trash in it. I FKN THREW AWAY THE FOOD!~! so i had to go back and get MORE food. $6.21 friday night, i locked myself out when i went to a neighbors house to eat, and my parents are out of town...so i had to call a locksmith. $58.96 this morning, i wake up, go upstairs, get the pizza outta fridge and put it in oven (@ 400 degrees), take the empty box outside for trashcan, and door shuts...im fkn locked out again, this time, IN MY GODDAMN UNDERWEAR. so im sitting there trying to figure out wtf im going to do, and they only think i can think of is to go to my neighbors house and ask to use a phone. i walk up, ring doorbell and the lady answers, her son is in the kitchen. we go in after i explain 1) who i am and 2) what the hell i am doing in my underbunders ringing her doorbell. she let me use her phone and her son goes downstairs laughing, and tell his brothers and sister what is in the kitchen, so of course, they all come up and im standing there talking on the phone. i never get embarresed, and i wasnt to embarrest today but still, i felt like a jackass. so locksmith comes to open door, the same guy. $58.96 oh btw pizza was burnt... gg me ive managed to spend $133.94. money that could have been used for CPL which is in comming up soon. |
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So bummed about many things, ill have to post about them later... |
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mood: devious music: Nine Inch Nails - Ringfinger |
been a while since ive been able to post. lj was down yesterday and today ive been out and about... casted a lot this past few days and loving every minute of it. i think i have finally found what i truly enjoy doing, shoutcasting. thank you archvile, byte and terefel for sparking my intrest in tsn. saw spiderman2 tonite, and it was pretty good. i wasnt expecting much from it so "pretty good" is what it gets. too much of a love story for me. i want more action. the action scenes were good in it but there were just not enough. playing painkiller daily now, fun game and i am hoping to pick up some pk stuff for tsn. marshall, jefft and bridger all play with us so maybe we could set up a miniteam to get the ball rolling... archvile and byte and tonya all go to sleep early now, so i have no one to play games with :( so i guess ill just play with myself...heh erin is the most amazing person on the planet. she amazes me daily with everything she does. i love her so much, i would do anyhting for her. everytime she talks to me, it makes me feel really good. i want to spend as much time with her as i possibly can this summer and am achieving it. i see her almost daily and when i dont, i talk to her on the phone. i hate the phone but if thats what it takes to speak with her, i will do it. my cpl stuff needs to be paid for tomorrow so i will have to get some money out or something so my reserved spot is not taken. i really dont know how i will do that. my uncle has just found out (a week ago) that he has cancer. he has been a druggie all his life, he was a horrible brother to my mom, and i bairly know him @ all. i have met him maybe 5 times in my life but what i am saddened about is his daughter. kimmy is staying at our house now (btw they live in texas) and she doesnt know how bad he is doing...which isnt good @ all. i feel bad for her and for my mom. she has lost everyone in her life, only creating her own family and the ones she has left are her brothers. robert is living in kansas now, working for my dad, jon (the sick one) is now deathly sick with cancer and it is just another family member that will be gone before they are 50. i am doing all i can to make her feel better, doing the dishes, cleaning up, stuff like that. i know its not much but it helps out plenty.  the image says it all, peace, love, and tsn. |
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mood:  mellowmusic: Buffalo Springfield - For What Its Worth | Metallica - Sad But True |
i love music. most types of music. country is blah. rap is not music. i get angry when people refer to rappers as artists. led zeppelin were artists. jimmy page is a musical artist. trent reznor is a musical artist. are the periods annoying.  photoshop is my friend these days, i open it almost everyday. i also open slsk and download random music and listen. i get tired of the same music over and over. i still like the music but i also like to experience new music. im not talking about "new" music as in the trendy rehash bullshit that is shown on tv all day. im talking about music that is new to you. if there is one thing that i would like for everyone who visits my journal, it would be for you to feel inspired to try something new musically. go to an internet radiostation and tune in, go to kazaa and download a song from a band that you have not heard, ask your friends what they are listening to and go download it. lately ive been trying to expand my library on my pc with music that i know other people like but i have not tried yet. in a weeks time, i have downloaded 2.41 GB of music that i either have not heard in a long time, or have not heard at all. its almost liberating to not listen to what you love. john has sent me some ambient music, stuff that lets you space out and chill. i have loads of time by myself now, since my gaming buddies all go to sleep @ normal people hours now, i just dont want to. last night i sad and listened to music for 4 hours on some brazillian internet radio station. i heard some of the best drums i have ever heard. i feel like i missed out on what i have wanted to do for a long time. in 4th grade, i wanted to be a drummer so i joined the orchestra, and got beat out by dustin humpert and someone else. dustin quit playing sometime in HS and who knows what the other person is doing. ive always liked procussion music. have you ever been sitting at your pc or tv and spaced so much that you feel like you are a mile away, and the tv/monitor looks like its so far away. you have no periferial vision, its almost like you have blinders on and the screen is the only thing that you can see. i guess i cant really explain it, i feel this every once in a while, its what im feeling right now. i just feel like the monitor is so far away... does anyone other than my "friends" read my journal? probably not since this is only around my 10th or so entry, but i feel like ive writen so much in this damn thing. sun is up, time for bed. |
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mood:  weirdmusic: Doors - L.A. Woman |
DRIV3R!~! i called best buy before noon today - before noon, i was up before noon, its weird to think about... - but i called bestbuy to see if driver came out today and the response was "well sir, this is the release week, we dont usually get games until a couple days after the release date." i said "i know that this is the release week, ive been waiting for the game for a long time, oh and what is the point of a release date if stores dont get it until the couple days after the release date?" "um, i dont really know, i just work here." CLASSIC RESPONSE! i just work here. if you work in dept, you should know exactally what is going on in your deptartment. if a game like driver 3 is comming out, and they are actually selling peices of paper for 5 dollars (that goes towards the purchase of your game) that reserve your copy, so you know that this is a big release for them..i just dont understand i guess.  i got painkiller the other day and was impressed at first, the disapointment came later when a giant map loaded and my pc said, "well fuck that." i got new drivers and it fixed it, DAMN YOU NVIDIA! very very good game tho, loads of fun to play the single player. the netcode is shitty (thx for warning byte) and needs a big tune up, but i hear its fun on LAN so ill have to wait i guess. i really dont know what i will do next semester, i dont have a job now, and no one is calling for interviews. i got hired by target, signed papers and all, then i got a letter in the mail, three days after paper signings and it said i was terminated because my position had been filled. i think they wised up and realized that i was only a junior in college and i would probably go back to college in the fall. as for now, im having fun and all, doing NOTHING, but i dont have money, and my mom keeps telling me that i wont be able to move back, but i know i will be able to. she will cover me till i get a job, like she always does. i really dont have a target date for finishing college, i just want to get it done and start "the rest of my life." bleedthrough is almost out, probably a few months, the longer the better i think, trent has never let me down with his stuff, even tho i caught the nails and started to really listen after fragile, i now have all the CDs and all mp3s. i hope it is completly different that the rest of the stuff that has been released. i hate rehash, all the new music on the radio is rehash. its been done, been heard and sucks. updated my tsn cam w/ this:  i might be cool next update and not write so much, and be like cody and provide pics of me standing in awkward positions in the park... ^_^ ZINGERZ |
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mood:  excitedmusic: Metallica - King Nothing |
started playing a new game w/ teh boys, ground control 2. its pretty cool, rts w/ a twist kinda. im begining to think that i am also a strategy gamer (as well as an FPS gamer), i really liked generals, and rise of nations is fun shit, this just seals it, i am an RTS gamer...now just gotta work on being asian. went for a nice walk after dinner today, and my dad acually went with us and walked the entire time. i do not have a good relationship with him, he messed it up really early for me, never really being there, treating his family like shit and his "friends" like gods, and constantly CONSTANTLY showing off for other people. whether it is him making fun of someone for having a small porch on their house, to acutually talking about how much money he has and what he can do with it. it is absolutly sickning. i cannot stand to be around him 93% of the time.. today i got up and i didnt give him a card, a hug, or even say happy fathers day, imo, he doesnt get to celebrate this day. sure, he provides for our family w/ money and that shit, but he has never been there when people need him. he is never wrong, you cant tell him he made a mistake, you cannot let him know that he isnt doing something right, you cant even say you are doing it right, WHATEVER IT MAY BE, you are wrong, he is right. i cannot stand that, at all. ill dive into shit about him later on, it makes me pissed to even think about it. happy fathers day, father. driver 3 is almost out, i cannot wait for this game, been waiting even since the first game back on playstation. this one looks so bad ass, w/ REAL collesion detection and other shit that is never right in other games. the cool thing about this game is that you can just go, get in a car and cruise, stop @ stop lights, run them if you like, park in parking spaces, fill up your car w/ gas, and if you do something you are not suppose to, like drive on curb, or run red light, and a cop is there, he will pull you over. i really dony understand why i want this game so much, whenever i play driver, i do things in the game that most people, including me, hate doing in real life. wierd. i stated to play my geetar again, just picked it back up last night, maybe one night, ill plug my guitar in and record something and post it. ill have to get a lot better @ it before then tho. |
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subject: <3 Tonya mood:  amusedmusic: Crystal Method - Busy Child |
Tonya has paied for my journal so now i am trying to fix it up but am stupid with this kind of stuff, hopefully it will all work out and everything will be cool. not gonna do a full update yet, but a big one is comming. |
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mood:  hotmusic: Nine Inch Nails - Gave Up |
went swimming twice today and passed out the flyers. i might print out more tomorrow and hit more houses. see ya later, alligator. after-a-while, crocodile see ya soon, silly baboon take care, grizzley bear sooo long... |
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